Control

I am a control freak.

I am coming to grips with the fact that I can't control everything. Mainly anxiety. And it's maddening. Something that I want and have an insane need to control more than anything else, and I can't. But still it hits. And it hits hard. What is especially irritating today is that it hit where I wasn't expecting it to. It hit by way of something I love. Something I love to do and it's hitting me there. That hurts. I hate that I have trouble doing things that most people can do without blinking an eye. While others go on their merry way, I'm doing breathing exercises and trying to escape out of my own head. Oh well. I survived. On to tomorrow.